Fans of Ram Gopal Varma have been waiting a long time to see the filmmaker return to form. The chances of that happening seem likely now if he sticks to what he said in his latest social media post.
In a lengthy note on his official X handle, RGV wrote that he was overwhelmed by emotions after watching Satya again for the first time after 27 years. RGV writes that he took a long and hard look at what he and the filmmaker in him have become since then, adding that he was "too caught up with" what's ahead of him that he didn't spend enough time to reflect on what he has just created.
"Making a film is like giving birth to a child originating from throes of passion without truly realising what kind of a child I am giving birth to. That’s because a film is made in in bits and pieces without one really knowing what’s being made and when it is ready, the concentration is on what others are saying about it and, after that, whether it’s a hit or not, I move on too obsessed with what’s next to reflect and understand the beauty of what I created," he said.
RGV reflected that he regrets not seeing Satya as a benchmark for the things he would do in future. He also shares that he cried thinking about the version of himself that made the film and the guilt caused by all the betrayals he caused to those who trusted him due to Satya.
He attributes his fall from grace to the fact that he "became drunk" on his own success and arrogance. "When the bright lights of a Rangeela or a Satya blinded me, I lost my vision, and that explains my meandering into making films for shock value or gimmick effect or to make a vulgar display of my technical wizardry or various other things equally meaningless and in that careless process, forgetting such a simple truth that technique at the most can elevate a given content but it can’t carry it."